I Am Who I Am Not

How to make your magic more understandable?

2010-01-14T08:21:00.000-08:00

If you wonder why, despite countless hours of practice, your magic doesn’t slay audiences the way you envision it to, try slowing down your performance. Your magic might just be over speeding and difficult to understand.

Most close-up magicians in the Philippines, especially those who perform card and coin tricks, move at breakneck speed. They think they have to outpace people’s eyes to deceive them.

The result is that the audience sees coins cavort from one hand to another, cards go up and down the deck, change colors, disappear and reappear, but people don’t really understand what’s going on. To them, everything seems to be a blur.

Give your audience some breathing space, so they can swallow and digest the performance. Don’t smother them with machine-gun fire magic. Magic is not a serve-and-volley tennis game where you have to serve the ball at radar-busting speed to get past your opponent.

Magic needs less brute force than that. It is about smoothness and naturalness. Speed is not natural. Even if a performer successfully executes his sleights at supersonic speed, his audience will still know something happened out of the ordinary. They don’t know what exactly happened, but they know something did. A mere suspicion of the method breaks whatever illusion you may want to create.

Slow down your performance. Try to tell a story. To be entertaining, magic should tell a story. Never mind if its plot is tenuous, it should move along a line that audiences can follow, understand and empathize with. For that matter, your performance must have a beginning, a middle and an end. Beginning: Here’s a handkerchief in my right hand. Middle: I close my hand around it, and it’s gone. End: The handkerchief travels through time and space, and it’s now in my left hand.

Most magic tricks don’t have such a well-defined structure. In most cases, the stages overlap, leaving the performer clueless as to where he is exactly at certain points of the performance. Still, if he takes his time to bring his audience through these stages at leisurely pace, his audience will understand better the story he wants to tell through his magic.

Some magicians move fast from stage to stage of their performance, execute their sleights at Guinness Book of Records speed, because they fear detection. The result is that they get away with the sleight but at the expense of leaving their audience confounded. What the heck was that all about? they mutter to themselves as they go away. The performance confused them, and the magic failed to amaze them.

You may have heard of the much bandied-about attributes of a magician, namely, that magicians have quick hands.

This is partly true, because many magicians, fearful of being caught, execute their sleights rapidly. Deep in their subconscious they may be saying, “Never mind if the audience don’t get the point of my performance, as long as they don’t catch the secret moves.” These performers are thankful of the little blessings they get.

One good way to determine if you are moving faster than needed is to shoot a video of your performance. The video will show your mastery of the basic moves. It will also allow you to see the possibility of slowing down the performance without compromising both the sleights and the clarity of the magic.

Learn to pause at the right places and slow down a bit. Provided you have good eye contact with the audience and your misdirection techniques are excellent, you’ll sail right through your performance without getting caught. The best part is that the spectators understand what’s going on, because the right pacing and the pauses give your magic clarity.

If only there is chance?

2009-04-18T03:47:00.000-07:00

The rain, just never seems to bring
The joy, I feel the same
Everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart, can't seem to learn to part
The hold you left the mark
All that I dreamed of now it seems so stark
Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
A part of me was dying

The way, you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything on that day
I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance
To share the sunset our one last romance
Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
A part of me was dying
There is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,
I'd never let you go

faulty items i had from magic

2009-03-01T23:29:00.001-08:00

Heres some of the faulted items i recieved

LINKING RINGS -one of the rings had a split in it

FORCING DECK -didnt have any instructions

MULTIPLYING BILLIARD BALLS - one of the balls was in half

BALL AND VASE -couldnt find the other ball

INVISIBLE DECK - consisted of 26 double facers

CHOP CUP - one of the balls keeps sticking to the bottom when i turn the cup upside down

STRIPPER DECK - the backs where normal!! ( No photo's of big breasted woman )

DING DONG - - Completly useless (according to the wife) batteries not supplied and made of "SPONGE" !!!!

Vintage 1800

2009-02-23T09:38:00.000-08:00

Unlike memory drivers, if you delete memories from your heart, it is not permanently removed, instead, permanently stored in the infinite , and spread like cancer cells , till forever, if it shall come.

If forever is a day in my life, there will be no monday tuesday wednesday thrusday friday saturday sunday

Good things are illusions. My job is to create it.
How far will it go? depends on how deep you choose to indulge

everlasting

2009-02-02T08:51:00.000-08:00

Nothing last but memories.

Had a great movie today, Red Cliff 2.
Watched it last year alone, decided to watch again alone. Indeed nice. no regrets.
Am so touched to see the war scene. Great production

Saw another gal who is watching alone there, wearing white. if you know who you are please drop a comment :P -sunway pyramid-

After Chinese new year, digging back old memories, catching up with old friends. strange yet familiar :P

Me and F5

2008-11-09T02:10:00.001-08:00

Belated
I do Magic. I'l make it disappear!
Me and my parents, obviously dad left mum mid me right.

Me and my Godparents( due to catholic teachings, I have 3 sets of parents while others have only 1)
Me beloved grandpa

His award.
After thought: I felt so tiny between other prize winners with tons of awards, multiple papers, gold medalists, top scorers..... I'm a minemee!
*Disclaimer: They asked me to post with the red file. I'm not obsessed with it.*

Before this I did a show in Sunway Lagoon Pirates of the Carribbean Dinner

I met Suki the millionaire.
Another 2 hot pirates
A tiger
And a ZOMBIE. I THINK I AM SCARIER

Study= ?

2008-10-18T07:28:00.000-07:00

Study a bit = Pays

Study more = Reward

Study a lot = Award

Choose one.

Illegal

2008-10-15T06:44:00.000-07:00

I'm in an illegal gathering of more than 3 people...

sounds cool?

Respect Human's Right

2008-09-19T10:39:00.000-07:00

Read a sad story from notice boards in college regarding human's rights.

A victim of rape, a refugee, begged: " please kill me after if you are going to rape me."
The cold blooded replied : " Let your shame kill you slowly"
WTF

That made me thought for a whole night.
Why cant we human beings treated fairly and justly?
I am guilt for looking away from a street cleaner or rubbish collector. I know it is wrong.
I'l try to give them a smile the next time I see them.

Refugees, lower class citizens and all mankind, have equal rights to be treated like a human, they deserve a smile , politeness, public facilities, Mcdonalds, etc.

Please, Respect human rights.

get it done now!

2008-09-16T10:53:00.000-07:00

FOR GOODNESS SAKE, LOSE WEIGHT NOW!
171108 IS SO SOON!

Mooncake festival

2008-09-15T11:28:00.000-07:00

I don't understand what is the theme here, moon or mooncake?]

Anyway, celebrated the festival in my room whole day . zzz
When come to kl, no life, no more childhood experience
Why we sacrifice our culture to compromise the advance in technology?

Miss the time when I carry lanterns, hanging around trees in the big garden in my old residence
Miss the time I actually burnt the lanterns
Miss the time where I played with candlelights around the compound, then scratching the wax off
Miss the time where i celebrate mooncake festival with my family back in Muar.
Miss the time We can enjoy the big round full moon without any pollutants filtering our view.
Miss the time where we talked about stories regarding how Chang-e and Hou-Yu's romance in the moon

I want to celebrate this festival back in Muar next year!~ Back in my old house where the beautiful compound is so suitably to be lit up with candlelights and lanterns.
And the whole garden will be lit by moonlights and lanterns
And we will gasp in wonder about its beauty

月有阴晴阳缺；人有悲欢离合；
但愿人长久；千里共婵娟。
Moon has different phases;
Human has sorrow, joy, departure, unity
May we live healthy and happily;
Enjoy the full moonlight thousand miles away.

Escape

2008-09-08T09:21:00.000-07:00

Done my risk assessment through past experience
There are 2 outcomes, you will be barred from exam if you:
1. Skip the test
2. Score below 40
(Original contract)

Since I
1.wasn't fully prepared,
2.cherish time( time is money),
3.don't want to be demoralized,
4.LAZY
I took the path not taken, SKIP IT.

End result:
1. Students who scored below 20, Barred, or invited to voluntarily quit
2. Those who skipped, No barring yet(MUAHAHA, HUMBLE HUMBLE HUMBLE).
Condition: pass progress test2 or out we go.
(in substance)

I'm happy that i took the risk. Die also die later la die so early for what? still got 1 month maybe to test2? Lol

OK ABOVE WAS TRUE 2 DAYS AGO, BUT RUBBISH NOW
Almost got barred, given 2 choices, defer, or withdraw from college.
Is not high likely to be barred, but confirm.
Luckily it saved me. At least it does help sometimes.

But I made a promise to her, her and myself.
Now dead or alive also must fall in love with my at least 5kg notes, must fall in love with her.
I just hate carrying my bulky notes around, make me look nerdy.
I missed the old me, a pen, a piece of paper, and me. Where I can happily nap in class, picnic in class and still pass
I had a sudden crush. OMGosh I'm crumpled.
Being ambitious once more.
If I got the strength

LalALALALALalalalaLAlaLaLalAlALaLaLALALALalalal@

Greed

2008-09-04T00:48:00.000-07:00

1 is not enough.
Give me 1 more.
The previous one was unfairly treated.
Just give me another 1 this time. Big one.

I know when to face the truth and I know when to dream =)

Give me motivation

2008-09-02T17:36:00.000-07:00

Crappy.
Confused.
Caffeinated.
Contradicted.
Christopher...

A sudden realization.
A sudden jerk back to reality.
I've been making empty promises to myself.
I said I'll study.
I said I'm motivated,
But am I really?

I want to produce results,
But I don't put effort in.
I want to study,
But laziness set itself in.

So much has been said.
So much to be done.
So much to revise.
So little time.

What do I really want.
What am I supposed to do?

I want motivation.
I need motivation.
I feed on motivation.
I thrive on motivation.

With all those attention,
So much expectations.
I came into realization,
No more procrastination.
And now where's motivation?

Australia seems so far
Prizes seem so useless
Graduation lacks of attractiveness
Working is demotivating
ALL i smell is FREEDOM

Results Progress test and my slack in magic

2008-08-29T10:08:00.000-07:00

Results out. Right choice for 2 papers combination. I killed law. Permanently.
I need 29 marks more for OBU 1st class.
Better pass my audit.
Hate results session, Din't feel good despite my results. Why people fail?

P2 kacau, so i skip the test, after series of risk analysis and past experiences.
See if she keeps her words :D

Acca camp tomorrow. Not enough sleep. How?

Have been slacking in my profession, Magic. Rejected shows and events. How smart.
I need to buck up, practice practice practice, and go out to amaze
Remember, it is not magic, its an experience. Unique

undecisive. Which better?

2008-08-07T01:44:00.000-07:00

Even the world turns around,
I'm still ME

Here is an ambigram she made for me :

Dealing with figures.

2008-07-16T10:01:00.000-07:00

Now I deal with figures and numbers
Numbers don't lie
They are easier to be dealt with, they present the facts
Learn to find truth in figures, not people.

You, as if evaporated into the air, untraceable, make me believe that it is insignificant
I don't owe the world, the world doesn't owe me

I have a mission
Set a wild target, aim for the things I've lost, get 'em back double.
Be ambitious, Dream.

* i set up a blog to talk to myself...

the day since...

2008-07-06T07:41:00.000-07:00

Never heard about you since exam, how are you?
I'm silly.
New semester started, lonely, but familiar.
Cafeteria is again my enemy during lunch and break.
Sometimes is difficult to find someone to dine with
Sometimes you don't even know who to find for a movie.
Living for myself again.
get over it
hooray ACCA

Exam is over, then Magic, then exam,magic,over and over again...

2008-06-10T04:06:00.000-07:00

Exam's over on the 5th, fell sick on the 6th , feeling bored on the 9th and going back Muar on the 11th, then i got life.

2 Main events recently
EXAMMMMM
Exam makes me feel good, my purpose here is for exam, before exam looks like *god* and after exam become dog :D always like that. That's why the word is reversible isn't it? Its meant for this
Exam is an experience, which taught me lessons i will never learn
Exam was suck, I learnt the hard way, they tested the easier way, nice strategy. DEFEATED.
But I will come back soon after the wounds.
Class starting in july, exam in december , holiday and life goes on...and on and on..when will it end?
It shall, soon.

MAGICCCC
When you've got no more value, there is always something which can add value to you, which will never turn you away, MAGIC.
Luckily there was an Asia magic festival held in subang parade last weekend, which compensated the emptiness after exam. If they have it every year, I won't complain much, but my wallet will.
3 days hyped with magic, performers from Korea, Philipines, Canada, Indonesia, Thailand, China, Hong Kong, Japan, and Malaysia.
3 days flooded by talented skilled performers and contestants motivated me to sharpen my tools to join their journey, it won't be easy but it is not impossible.
I can see the evolution from mockery when i started until the recognition i get now and then.

Besides, I just got to know that there is actually a magic university in Korea, which offers degree and diploma in magic.. What? yes its true. You will learn the history , sleights, presentations, effects, dance, theater, acting, filming, constructions of gimmicks and etc.
How tempting. How i wish to get rid of my life now and start fresh in that place!

My feedback for the magic festival.
Korea, due to their all rounded magical education, their acts are mostly original and performed pretty well, all of them can dance, an eye opener for me
Japan, a lot of traditional elements, nice but I'm not ready to appreciate, there were skillfull ones which never failed Wowed me
Thailand has alot of manipulators, from the same master
China, creative and great skill, they have lotsa talents
Indonesia, Hong Kong , not bad
Malaysia...ok skip
Just kidding, we have alot to improve and eventually we can make it.

For those who missed the festival, here are some pictures taken ,feel free to BE JEALOUS

2 Thai magicians, the first one i can't remember her name, second one is Lee Ann, hot
Korean magician, Hannah the snowwhite, Sweet!
Japanese double-dancing cane magician, Hanna Kikuchi, Cute!
We, Shon, Sze Hower, Jennifer, Richard Forget(pronounce as ForJE, from Canada), ME, Edmund and Simon, Cool!

Sucahyo, Tito Cris( Cris Castro), Edmund, Shon and I, Hilarious

Jei Min and Hannah from Korea, performing Snow white Themed theatrical magic

That's all.
I have 3 weeks holiday but I got no plans. It has been 5 years(form3) since i went on a proper trip. I will enjoy my days with my family and my hometown, my comfort place.
Well, I won't hope much this round, Hope things turn better after I get out of this shitty boring life here, wearing a smiling vendetta mask is tiring ;) You can't see what's beneath

Just pray that I will meet more right people in coming future than in current state.

(not gf, i've got 1. ;) Good one, far far away though)

PS: You guys are always right, Accountants are square and boring.

3 Reasons to Hire a Magician, so, hire me :)

2008-03-19T01:53:00.000-07:00

Post quoted from:

http://innermagicclub.wordpress.com/

3 Reasons to Hire a Magician (My Biased Point of View)

Ok, I’ll own it up right off the bat. This is my biased advice to parents wanting a justification to hire a magician for their kid’s birthday party. Take my thoughts with a grain of salt.

1. Your child is special. Make his or her birthday party special and memorable. A magician at his/her party will make it special. The other kids don’t have one in their parties.

2. A live magic show creates a human connection that draws together your guests. Your child and his friends will all be thankful to you for providing it.

3. The food, drinks and decors of the party will pass to the the toilet and to memory. A good magician can give your birthday child fond memories that will last till old age. The magical moment will last forever in your child’s mind. I saw my first magic trick when I was in Grade 3. Until now, I still remember vividly that first magic trick.

You probably did not have a magic show at your birthday party when you were still a child. It was a novelty then that had not yet caught on. Today, many parents have realized it’s a must-have feature to make the child’s birthday party extra special and memorable.

So hire a magician to entertain the children and the adults at your child’s birthday party.

Or else I’ll stick needles on your voodoo doll.

Stay magical,

Leodini

www.leodini.com

Hey there lovely lady...

2008-03-09T07:57:00.000-07:00

Hey there Goh Pei Xian what is like in Melbourne city huh!!?
Bad gal send me song make tears rolling. lol

i type 299 words per minute :P

2008-03-04T01:18:00.000-08:00

299 words

Speedtest

My ambitious routine

2008-03-02T22:36:00.000-08:00

In shows i do alot of ambitious card routine

In life, i missed several chances to be ambitious

I have another chance of being ambitious right now
I just hope no any wild card will pop up to ruin my routine
I'm praying
Its not easy
Its low
But, i still got a chance.
No news is good news.
I'm still praying

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光良握你的手

2008-01-31T09:51:00.000-08:00

作词：姚若龙作曲：光良编曲：吕圣斐

山顶的风凉得像钻进我内心
沉默是我们最近唯一的话题
看曾经亲密的爱慢慢像友谊
爱是流星
一坠落就不停
我们尝试让彼此差异能隐形
遗憾的是回避不能解决问题
当我疲倦地凝望你憔悴表情
再不舍得
也该让你远离
握你的手
坚持到最后一秒钟
哪怕爱要冰凉了
至少让回忆是暖的
了解比爱难多了
我们都尽力了
也许温柔
是停止挽留
是停止再挽留
握你的手
像耳语轻声说保重
让眼睛就算湿了
不只是痛也有感动
以前每一次挥手
都为了再握手
但这一次
是为了放手

Cold breeze at the moutain peak snuck into my heart
Silence is the only topic between us
The relationship that used to be is fading to friendship
Love is like meteor
Once fallen, it will never stop
We tried to recover the gap between us, to make it invisible
The only regret is avoidance will not solve any problem
When i gazed deeply into your exhausted eyes
How unbearable I am
I have to let you go

Get hold to your hands
Hold on to the last second
Even though the love is cold
At least memories will remain warm
Understanding is so much difficult than love
We tried our best
Maybe what gentleness means
Is to stop persisting
Stop persisting..

Get hold to your hands
Bid a light farewell by your ear
The eyes are wet
There are touching moments besides pain
When i waved my hands at you in the past
Was to hold on to you
But this time
Is to let go...

So random right?I translated the whole song by Guang Liang :P
hehe
When i heard of this song, I got inspired
Enjoy this wonderful song
Enjoy holding hands with your love ones
Like this :

Dream?

2008-01-20T18:18:00.000-08:00

I dream my painting, and then I paint my dream -Vincent Van Gogh-

I think this blog is mainly on the subject dream
But what is dream?
Scientifically, its a phenomenona series of mental images and emotions occurring during sleep
Dreams are the images, thoughts and feelings experienced while asleep, particularly strongly associated with Rapid eye movement sleep. The contents and purpose of dreams are poorly understood, though they have been a topic of speculation and interest throughout recorded history.

It occurs in humans, most mammals, and some birds. The events of dreams are often impossible or unlikely to occur in physical reality, and are usually outside the control of the dreamer

So, What is dream?
I always wondered. When I am writing this post, am I really awake and back to reality, or am I still in my dream, dreaming myself doing all of these, is it part of my dream? or is it the reality?????????

Dreams, everybody has dream. When someone has no more dream, he will be rubbish.
What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?
There is a chinese saying, men are great because of dream. ( but this dream referring to another dream)
Dreams are so abstract, people often dream big, but never action
Some people took up the challenge, but shattered all way down
Some people refuse to accept it, and waiting for a day to be back to real

Dreams are annoying. When you think you are almost there, something strikes you back to reality
Only in dreams everything are so beautiful, and in reality everything seems opposite.
I used to have dream. But i stopped. And now i began to pick the pieces of it, and work towards it.
I always wonder, will i wake up, or continue indulge in my fantasy.

The fishermen know that the sea is dangerous and the storm terrible, but they have never found these dangers sufficient reason for remaining ashore.
Vincent Van Gogh

I'l come back later, i go continue dreaming. good night

Gratitude.. O.o

2008-01-07T18:29:00.000-08:00

More than words i can speak

Thank you for the opportunity given to me
Thank you for being part of my dream
Thank you for the start of a great semester
Thank you for being there for me
Thank you for the care and shelter provided
Thank you for brightening up my day
Thank you,for making my day,so sweet.
Thank you,for keeping me off loneliness.
Thank you,for pardoning my errors
Thank you,just for being you

And for this tender moment
I'll save to reminisce

"I Take Joy

I Take Joy
I take joy every day, in the simplest of things,
Like the sound of the thrush, and the song that he brings,
Like the sight of the clouds, as they're drifting on by,
All floating around me, and filling the sky.
I take joy in a smile from a genuine face,
From a tender sweet look, or a gentle embrace,
I take joy in what's free, and costs nothing at all,
A moment of laughter which sometimes I recall.
I delight in the fact I am here every day,
A chance to enjoy all which might pass my way.
We pass this way once, so many would say -
But I take joy in fact that I'm living today.
The sounds of the world brings such pleasure to me,
After years of such silence - just the sound of a bee-
Is pure magic, enriching the joys of today,
As he scurries and buzzes and goes on his way.
I delight in the kindness of folks that I know,
The caring, the thoughtfulness, people can show.
I take joy in the fact that my heart knows no fear,
For I've been given today, and another bright year.
I thank God every day for the love I have known,
For each happy sweet day, for each tenderness shown.
I take joy in my heart, more than can be expressed -
For a life of such beauty - A life truly blessed.

-Inspirational and motivational poem quoted from an author in UK
"

Dejavu

2008-01-03T11:42:00.000-08:00

Is God sending a message to me?
Experience can be duplicated?
Attitude and behaviour can be duplicated?
Why, everything is so alike , no, it is exactly
Stories of 2 totally different person, can be duplicated?
Why is it so similiar
Why it seems so real?
It seems to fall on the same person
But they are 2 totally different people
And we are 2 totally different people
Could it be Deja vu ...?
I'm afraid
I'm sorry
I'm regret
I'm feeling what she felt
I cant look back
but I can proceed forward

Christmas 07

2008-01-02T09:04:00.000-08:00

I'm dreaming of a white christmas, just like the one I used to know...

Have you had a merry little Xmas 07?

I had a satisfying Christmas, but something is still missing

I had an enjoyable Children's Christmas party in St. Andrew church Muar
Did a show for the party as the theme for the year is magic

I participated in a 3 days Christmas caroling, singing carols of joy, bringing back olden yet golden memories , as well as new experiences

Where all faithful friends departed for some time are gathered together and shared moments of joy.(I told you, MAGIC is the theme for christmas)

I celebrated a unique Christmas in 07, at the peak of a mountain, in the midst of cloud

Passed my christmas eve bringing laughter and joy to people
Awaiting christmas surrounded by snow and ice

Celebrated my Christmas day with kids in party

And spent my christmas night with cards dice and chips

With a special one by my side, blessings from my friends and family, and guardians from God

I dint go to church, but i welcomed Christ with an open heart, for this day is born a savior, my Messiah
I'm happy that all races actually came together and celebrated the birth of Jesus
I'm glad i greeted my beloved ones
I'm happy that I know, You'll be happy too.

And then a brand new year came by
2008
sounds good? sounds bad ?
For you and I to discover
Big plans awaiting me, my future is uncertain, and I'm here to explore
Dream Big and Believe, miracles will be created :)

Like this:!

(Please, Dont try this at home)

I miss you !!!

2007-07-26T11:06:00.000-07:00

I got no one to turn to, nor anyone to cry to, i shall whine here.
If you cant stand a guy whining, get the F out of here
Guys are not suppose to be Emo i know but i cant help

Expectations leads to Disappointment
No disappointment without expectation
I will not expect anything from everything from now on
Everything is like bubble, so fragile, burst before it manage to rise up to the sky

friendship, studies, ambition, everything
Maybe everything is fake, they look nice at the surface but deceitful in depth
Things just dont appreciate me as i do

Maybe, or because i am not important afterall
my weakness of not saying NO TO THEM!!
I give in 100%, i get nil in return nevemind, i get negatives!

Maybe from now on i will learn to use the word REJECT in my life, when there is only 1 request for me to answer yes and million reasons for me to say NO!

I'm dumb i admit , thank you for those who made me look dumber !

One thing i felt good about it is, many great thinker, great people, even our lord Jesus, were once rejected, denied and regarded as fool.

No more Mr.Nice.Guy
I so super dumb, i want to stop being a dumbass !
Who is smart enough to enlighten me? heh :P

Past Present Future...

2007-07-15T12:08:00.000-07:00

We are unaware of something when we do it

When something is recorded in the history, then only realisation of the consequences strikes us

Remain unchanged forever

The rule says, nobody can change history, a fact that has taken place in the past

However, rules are all subjected to exceptions

For today, yesterday became history, and tomorrow is a mystery
Today is present, though yesterday became history

I cant change history , but I can create history
Let the history i created override the previous
Give me a chance in future, to modify my history

ACCA...II

2007-07-04T11:43:00.000-07:00

I THOUGHT,
I stepped into the new semester..
Facing unknown challenges awaited me
I see unfamilliar faces all around, not you..
The class is so big and i lost in the crowd..
Is time to leave the past behind, erase the bad and unconstructive memories
Keep the good ones, revise the useful ones, setting new standards for a good start
Free my mind to welcome all kind of trials
Bring it on!!!
... ......

i invited myself to this challenge, i accepted it, and now i feel like backing out.
i am not excited anymore...
something's missing, not fun without .o.

Baby i still believe...

2007-06-22T04:07:00.000-07:00

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Baby i still believe... baby i believe...

Dunno why i put up this post.. suddenly typed it while listening to gary's song

Will time together helps feelings grow?
Or will absence make the heart grows fonder??

or otherwise?

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The little 52 ...

2007-06-20T10:20:00.000-07:00

Poker Playing Cards
Ever wonder what is the origin of these playing cards?
Ever wonder why so much things can be done with only 52 cards?
Ever be amazed by the invention of poker cards??

Did a little research on poker cards
And am amazed by all the facts:

How many cards are there in a deck, excluding joker?
52
Does 52 sounds a lil familiar to u guys?
Yes, 52 weeks a year
And if you add up all the name of each cards in words, ACETWOTHREEFOURFIVESIXSEVENEIGHTNINETENJACKQUEENKINGS
You'l get 52...

How many suits are there in a deck?
4
And yes, there are 4 seasons in the year, and 13 cards per suit, which means 13 weeks in each season

And if you total up all the value of each card in the deck, Ace=1, Jack= 11, Queen = 12, King = 13
You'le get 365, doenst sound right? yes, 365 days in a year!

2 colours in the deck, black n red, representing the day and the night

12 picture cards, 12 months in a year

Everything's so interrelated...So much like Da vinci's principles...

Besides that, Ever wondered why is the King of Hearts has no moustache ?
It is not because he is young or what, it is caused by an accident, not by the king himself but the craftman who accidently broke the moustache in the mould, and the mould became a model for all other poker cards, so KingoHearts remained young but not happy...
Why? dont you see him poking his head with the sword?
He must be dam sad to be cacated!

Just wanna let you know.

2007-06-18T23:20:00.000-07:00

(i know this pic is so not fit for this post, but i just like to put it in)
---when you are gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you---

My confidence has fallen over the years, now is ZERO

I will pick up the pieces left one by one along the road in this coming sememster
I will show all of you what I was and really AM
I have experienced something which i never had the chance to try before my secondary graduation
I have met super nice people, as well as rotten parasites
I have learnt abt the cruelty of the society
I have learnt about the weakness of one's heart and mind

1 and half years in college is kind of a tribulation, but i will make the following years a challenge

This is not refering to anybody, but a motivation for myself.

Yesterday, Jennifer said smth that sounds real true, EMO is the curse for all blogs!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
maybe thats the only way ppl can express their feeings :P
and maybe thats how the birth of a great shakespearean?
who dare to deny that william shakespeare aint emo??'
'oh thou art the beautiful summer''...pui.

IM SO SO BORING AT HOME, I MISS ALL THE TIME I HAD IN CLASS!FRIENDS JOKES HOMEWORKS POLITICS TESTS EXAMS!

3 Big Events for the Mid-year Ended 30 June 2007 Part3

2007-06-15T10:22:00.001-07:00

After our exam, me and some friends had a trip to Genting
Cable car was fun, both uphill and downhill, like a pathway to heaven,so nice, the feeling of heaven is right beside me, so so real, i cant see anything, blinded by thickness of the midst..

Arrive at destination at 12 plus and out for games immediately after checking in the room

The most enjoyable ride- the pirates ship, is like going across humps n humps n humps again and again in the car, my heart felt so relaxing when it slides down and gravity nailed my foot when the ship goes up!

The most exciting ride- the solero shot! Superman, floating in the air for few seconds is nice! undescribeable

The most sorry ride- some mary-go-round like swing thingy. Accidently burnt Hui Sunn's hair with my Flamming wallet!!! Its really burning~!@#$ But the ride will be very romantic if its with another half

The LAMEST ride- stupid kiddo lame kart, driving a fake go-kart at the maximum speed of less than 50km/h ......

The dirtiest ride- CORKSCREW!!!!!!!!!!! oh yeah!

Dint really enjoy much because my eyes were soring n swallon and pain, there it goes the saying, the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak....
Enjoyed much because of the presence of the 8 of you,and you,and you , you, you, you, you,and yes, its you
Contradiction comes in play
Felt so alone when i was in coffeebean that night, everything was strange to me, thoughts confused me for a moment, am i or am i not, should i or should i not??
Is it true, or is it a sham? a shadow? or a loss of rationality middle of the night?
No cold breeze but a cold heart , frozen the feelings
My firewallet loses its flame, like a frozen blazing heart.
Jammed with my cards , freeing my mind, wandering around, imaginary is always so beautiful, nightmare is always so real, everything is so near yet so far
Contradiction is always there, what am i suppose to do???
Im lost in this paragraph, indulging in the presence of darkness once again, typing smth which makes no sense, please, Enlighten me...

Had a real nice heart-to-heart chat with friends, eating cup noodles at the corridor, playing spinning the bottle game,playing with my ciplak tongkat ali vanishing toy, listening to some strange sounds from room 912/3...

Dint take much photos, nobody bothered to, here are some:

So called the 4 cool, Marwan , Phei Chuen, Yi Jieh and I
It is not difficult to spot the poser in the photo, not the black shirt one.
Some say our smile assembles, do you think so??
Wil upload the rest after i get them

Genting, so ordinary.
Genting, so extraordinary, it makes the night before and the night after, my sleepless nights..
A bunch of special ppl ,makes something ordinary turns happening
Genting, a place of memory, when you are special ( does this line makes any sense? it came out randomly from my keyboard..coz it sounds romantic , just that :P)

Above is the Report for the mid-year ended 30th june, enclosing the disclosures and comments, which represents a true and fair view.
Following is the budget for the coming basis period :
-Forbidding all weight building/stacking
-implement control activities for weight depreciation
-closely supervisory and monitoring procedures
-on a consistent and going concern basis

END OF REPORT

3 Big Events for the Mid-year Ended 30 June 2007 Part2

2007-06-15T09:27:00.001-07:00

Part 2 of the events is a boring one!

CAT final examination ended 12th june 2007!

i took paper 7- some costing n performance management
Paper8- Audit
Paper 9- Tax

of all papers i have the least confident for my audit paper,
few hours before the exam, i already started planning for my future if i were to fail my audit (good planning at early stage is useful to implement future procedures!)
Positively:
1. I can be in the same class again with my good friend , i want!
2. I can have more time to focus on 1 paper only, and maybe, a World Prize??
3. I can have more time for my Magic practice
4. I can have some spare time to get a part time job, extra income??
5. I can learn a very very very good lesson!!

Seriously, there are so many good reasons for me to fail...

Negatively:
I cant attend the CAT graduation ceremony !!
And my dad will kill me!!
hahahahaha!!!

ok,so exam ended peacefully after the clock stroke 6! The exam invigilator actually started the exam few minutes late. We thought that she is going to extend the time, but heck , she SCRUTINISED the hanging clock back to 3pm! We felt that we are younger by 5 minutes! haha

Send some condolences to my hp, my exam invigilator kill it 3 times during the 3 papers...
sob sob sob!!!
[[QUOTE]]
INVIGILATOR: students please switch off your handphones, put your handphone on the floor, remove the batteries, and DIE YOUR HANDPHONE!!

So, there it goes my hp, cruely murdered by the merciless invigilator!!!

Anyway, im going to post some pictures taken on the last day of Joan's audit class

Posing in cards together with my audit lecturer, Joan Ong, and we are her very first and last batch of students

mini group photo of students from g2 and g3

Waiyeing,Marwan,Jessie, Maybelle, Kuan Yun, Mi Yuan, Joan and I, at SOUK restaurant having our farewell dinner!

Sorry if all the cards appearing in every picture sore your eyes
thats the problem having a cardist as your classmate :)

3 Big Events for the Mid-year Ended 30 June 2007 Part1

2007-06-15T08:12:00.000-07:00

Festival of Magic ASIA 2007 was held in subang parade from 1th june~ 10th june
There were 3 days magic competition and performances by professional magicians all over asia!
The heat of magic overwhelmed my exam fever, and exams, my CAT finals was totally out of my mind
My cousin got a job there, and because of that i got to know some of the magicians over there

Here is some pictures of the event:

Mr.Tito Cris from phillipines and I

Brian, Chris, Ezat and Edmund
(you guys will be seeing Ezat in action soon in tv)

Simon,Brian, Chris, Xiao Run and Edmund
Xiao Run is from china and is the overall Champion for the Magic competition, her act was included bow and arrow manipulation, chinese mask changing, costume changing, fanning deck, cards manipulation and etc,
EXTREMELY BEAUTIFUL. EXTREMELY SMOOTH AND FLAWLESS ACT

The competition and performances was really enjoyable, it is worth 3 whole days staying in subang parade with Mc.D as lunch and dinner!
Met many Malaysian magicians and had a card jamming session together with them as well as performing simple street magics to passerby

Here is a group photo for MMF-ites

another one:

3 days full of the spirit of magic
Many more pictures, but i lazy to upload la.

SAy together with me :

I BELIEVE IN MAGIC !!!

no more last time

2007-05-22T03:53:00.000-07:00

I will stop being so kind and helpful anymore
no more advantage shall be taken on me
not worth it seriously
too silly last time, now still not too late

a friend in need is a friend indeed
but
wat u call a fren who when no need is no more friendly indeed??

冷

2007-05-17T10:16:00.000-07:00

乌云密布，星星停止闪烁
月光照射冷漠的大地
影子是我的朋友
孤单是我的夥伴
空虚是我的知己
我的寂寞谁人知？
我的孤单谁人晓？

Nothing Good

2007-05-07T14:32:00.000-07:00

Nothing good happen to me lately

I met 'some' ''old'' friends, they see me like stranger
conclusion
I have no friends, if yes, maybe a few.

I spilled my Coffee again for 2372893747392179871 unlimited times
conclusion
Besides coffee addict, I'm a floor mopper

I absent for 2 of my mock exams, but i only missed one
conclusion
never close your eyes back after your alarm rings u

I missed my 10 hours revision class
conclusion
10 hours is just enough for me to sleep

I cant sleep at this moment, which is 5.40 am
conclusion
I'm like a cat

I cant wake in the morning, my bed, my everything
conclusion
I'm getting more like a Cat

I'm studying CAT in sunway college
conclusion
I'm seriously a CAT now!

I'm quite crappy and i have my finals in 1 month time
conclusion
Masa saya tidak lama lagi
..tunggu masa sahaja.... ( specially dedicate to chunghwa3 formal students)

I cant sleep and i am afraid that i cant wake, so i choose to stay up till the dawn
the fever of finals is spreading like a blight
overwhelming all the Cats day to night
why cant i feel any heat this is aint right!
motivation, please turn up
i cant fail myself this time, go away distraction and come motivation
come come to me, dispel the lazybug, and show your face!

people says a cat has 9 lives
how many i left?

Want some Coffee??

2007-04-24T04:02:00.000-07:00

What you see from the picture above??
Spilled coffee???
I have this problem of spilling coffee
everyday and everywhere i go i drink cofffee and i spill them occasionally
i got coffee spilled over my clothes, my bed, my Cds, my books and yes i got it spilled on my file yesterday!! a file that contains all my important documents such as certs, receipts , results.. etc
what the helll, and i believe that i smell like coffee now!
Howevery spilling coffee may be an art, i got it spilled on my tutorial pack for tax , and it added some colours of art to it, plus some nice aroma of coffee .

Have you manage to see what is it in the picture above??
it is not only as simple as a cup of spilled coffee
look carefuly
you might eve find the meaning of life in it
I've got a picture of Jesus over my spilled coffee!!!

haha actually not,i just got the picture from somewhere.
coffee, Jesus, coffee, Jesus ...Jesus over the spilled coffee
What message is it trying to send?

I dont know

2007-04-09T11:18:00.000-07:00

When good things come , they come in bulk
When good things go, they go at once
it is not the first time to be on the peak, and then fall down the cliff
it is not the first time when u realise u are about to get everything, when u lose all a second ago
but it is the first time, i come across selfishness.
A self centred mindset that wants all the good for himself, and manipulates others
I don't know what am I talking about, and i don't care
I don't curse, but i bless
blessed is he who craves for wealth, may he be granted all the wealth on earth
blessed is he who is selfish, may he be given all things to himself
blessed is he who is childish, may he stays young and thinks like a 3 year old forever
blessed is he who is greedy, may he gets everything he wants
but blessed for those who are generous and humble, may happiness finds no one but them

maybe study stress or what, i dont know
sleepless nights, falling asleep in classes ,waking up late for tutorials, i dont know
working hard to maintain or get a click, i dont know
trying to preserve good things that is about to go, i dont know
what i know is.when u gain the whole world, you will lose yourself

so simple

A sudden realization.
A sudden jerk back to reality.
I've been making empty promises to myself.
I said I'll study.
I said I'm motivated,
But am I really?

I want to produce results,
But I don't put effort in.
I want to study,
But laziness set itself in.

So much has been said.
So much to be done.
So much to revise.
So little time.

What do I really want.
What am I supposed to do?

I want motivation.
I need motivation.
I feed on motivation.
I thrive on motivation.

With all those attention,
So much expectations.
I came into realization,
No more procrastination.
And now where's motivation?

Magic. why?

2007-04-09T11:04:00.000-07:00

Addicted to magic recently
Why people do magic?

Why you do magic?

They are large number of magicians that I know do magic as a form of therapy. Because they feel inferiority, either he’s hideous (which they always think that way), lacking of social skill (too shy to talk with strangers), lower status in his job position (always being shouted by his superiors) or too poor (one who not born with silver spoon). And they use magic as a compensating tool. They feel superiority when they can do things their spectators can’t.
(quoted from forrest's blog)

Magic , is seperated from reality, blinds the truth, lies the eye and fools the fool
After experiencing all the jokes u can find in reality, trust me, you will prefer to let me fool you

I love magic alot, i practice alot, and one day, i will make you appear in my arms, and make the evil gone for good

Should I be proud as a Muarian?? lol

2007-04-09T11:01:00.000-07:00

joke

2007-03-31T10:48:00.000-07:00

A man was greeted by a angel on his way to the Gates Of Heaven. The angel tells the man,"If you wish to proceed and become a god, you'll have to tell me one good deed you have done in your life"

The man immediately replied,"There was once i saw a group of 20 mean bikers bullying a young woman on the sidewalk of the road. I immediately got out of my car and confronted the bikers, and punched their leader in the face, allowing the girl to escape safely."

The angel, upon hearing that, asked him," When did that happen?"

The man replied," A few minutes ago"

A hippie gets onto a bus and sits next to a nun in the front seat. The hippie looks over and asks the nun if she would have sex with him. The nun surprised by the question politely declines and gets off the at the next stop.

When the bus starts on it's way the driver says to the hippie, "I can tell you how you can get that nun to have sex with you." The hippie says that he'd love to know, so the bus driver tells him that every Tuesday evening at midnight the nun goes to the cemetery and prays to God. "If you went dressed in a robe and glow in the dark paint mask she would think you are God and you could command her to have sex with you."

The hippie decides this is a great idea, so that Tuesday he goes to the cemetery and waits for the nun to show up. At midnight sure enough the nun shows up and begins praying the hippie jumped out from hiding and says. "I AM GOD! I have heard your prayers and I will answer them, BUT ... first you must have sex with me." The nun agrees but asks for anal sex so she might keep her virginity because she is married to the church. The hippie agrees to this and has his way with the nun.

After the hippie finishes he stands up and rips off the mask and shouts,"Ha! Ha! Ha! I'm the hippie!!"

Then the nun jumps up and shouts, "Ha! Ha! Ha! I'm the bus driver!!"

the light has faded

2007-03-10T00:27:00.000-08:00

recently quite fuck up
because i was awake from my dream
and realise the cruelty of the reality
i don't want to accept it and let me be free from it
put me back into darkness so that my eyes will see no more and ears hear no more
my heart beats no more and my soul feels no more
this is my destiny

the darkness of the abyss
every year
overwhelm me
now!

My all in all

2007-03-08T10:00:00.000-08:00

Today i really appreciate being a Catholic Christian
Today i understand about unconditional love
Today i realised what wil last and what won''t
Today i understand mortal ad God
Today when the world abandoned me
Today shall i realise
Thou art always by my side
Today when i lose the world,
Today i still have Thee
and also my beloved you

To thee my trust shall lay

2007-03-06T09:25:00.000-08:00

not my choice to be sentimental,

An Eye for an Eye

38"You have heard that it was said, 'Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.'[^g] 39But I tell you, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. 40And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well. 41If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles. 42Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.

Love for Enemies

43"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor^[h] and hate your enemy.' 44But I tell you: Love your enemies^[i] and pray for those who persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

Nobody is perfect
If you cheat on me, let me be cheated
If you put me into trouble, let me be in trouble
If you don't trust me, let me lose your trust
If you hate me, let me be hated
If u slap my left cheek, u might as well slap both side of my cheek

For i believe that if God brings me to it
He wil bring me through it
thanks for all the trials that help me grow each day
and thanks for all the tribulations that sharpened my maturity
that i wil know when the world turns its back to me , you will offer your warm embrace,
and when the world rejects me, you welcome me with your arms widely

I'm ready to face these, in Thy name, for i know after this long journey , you will provide me with shelter and give me rest, you wil carry me, just like you carry the weight of the world upon your shoulder.

Happy moments-praise God
Difficult moments-seek God
Quiet moments- worship God
Painful moments- trust God
Every moment- thank God
(thanks maybelle for this great sms)
I believe that there is always rainbow after rain, spring after winter, and dawn after a long night I'l stand in awe of you let me trust the world once more

Freaking CNY!

2007-02-23T10:03:00.000-08:00

Rushing back to Muar on saturday evening, the cny eve
and great, woke up late,damm u silent mode of my hp!
luckily still got into bus in time..syuh...still got time lepak at petaling street anyway

Reunion dinner, great, full, satisfied .
series of peaceful days during my CNY......
-got a date from a malay gal appeared from no where in the basketball field...REJECTED
-searched along the street of TamChiak Koi wit couz for Muar famous dishes but hell all sold off!!
-got few sticks of otak-otak to stop the craving in d end...
-discovered a book titled Honk if you 're Malaysian by Lydia Teh
if you're not lazy you are no malay
if you don't cheat you are no chinese
if you don't drink you are no indian (quoted)

ok fine i drink i cheat and im lazy,wat am i? truely malaysian??wakkaka!!!

-Lost my bucks in Black jack!!! i'l play Red jack next time, black suei..
and then,
-here comes the most most super duper scariest event!
went to see dentist with a haha heart, and pomp it fell into deep shit when he said i need a surgery to remove my tooth!
just because d barsket bacterias ate up my tooth up to my nerve, i need to cut off piece of my gums to abstract the tooth!! my precious...oh my..its gone
im fine if the pain goes away together with the rotten tooth, but it left half side of my face swallon ,and i got blood in my mouth for the whole day! great,great.
wat a lose lose situation, wanna turn me into a complete pig is it in the year of boar?!

-came back to sunway with my swallon cheeky cheek hoping to visit my sweet lecturer the next day....
but wat the earth, those guys visited her without me informed.... gosh
2 days less wit my family, 2 days more of boredom
this feeling suck..right into all my nerves, into my spine and into my heart

is this a cursed chinese new year??
a pig year??
i hate pig , no pork!! no boars!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
see 1 eat 1 . bring it on man

God Bless Blazingkidz

Freaking pre-CNY!

2007-02-23T09:41:00.000-08:00

Omg Omg Omg
so many happenings in the month of february!!!!
first my gal left for aus la!! dam it right after our 2nd anniversary!!
promise wil miss u dear!
(however skype with webcam rawks!!)

then spend a freaking night in A&W
sacrificed my first night .......staying up in sunway,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
just to study a freaking simple tax paper man!! haha.
wth,12am~ 7 am staying up in A&w makes me feel like a homeless orphan!! haha
good la gonna kill myself if dun get over 90 marks for that paper!!!
before the night at A&W we were like above
after the long long night, we became :
tada!!!

haha..thats all for the events before CNY!

...

2007-01-26T09:16:00.000-08:00

Be true to yourself
True to your passion
True to your dreams, and
True to what you believe in
No matter how difficult it gets,
YOU CAN MAKE YOUR DREAM COME TRUE!!!

The great awakening

2007-01-24T08:20:00.000-08:00

Hey yo!
This is me(of course,taken in 2006,now im completely diff),
exactly a dreamer
I hav friends, no one ever lasted, and none i ever trusted
I hav dreams, not even one is fulfilled
having 365 days of decomposition in my past, living lifelessly in the tales of a fool
Now i begin to realise the purpose of life,
which is not to leave it grey and blank by painting colours to it
I'd spent my 2006 like the prodigal son, squanderinng around, contributing junk to the world
Somehow some sense managed to be inserted into my mind
And i realise that life cannot continue to be like that
It is the the time for the great awakening, a great revival for my fading soul

To stay away from the distraction of deadly sins that haunted me in 06

To trust in nothing but myself ,the judge and the operator of my life
To strive for the best, rescueing myself from the slacking past
To practice my faith more than anything else
To commit myself wholly into wat I am currently commited to
To bring myself back into reality from illusions and dreams
To present to you WHO I REALLY AM

Blazingkidz is having a strike back
Like an eagle !!!!!!

A GREAT WARRIOR WILL CHARGE FULLY WITH IMPETUS FOR THE SAKE OF HIS DREAM, HIS EVERYTHING...

...However, i'l still spare intervals in my life to dream...

Like an eagle soaring

2007-01-21T09:05:00.000-08:00

I am an eagle, an ego eagle
I come and i go, soaring freely in the sky
I am highly above , a lone ranger
I've got no friends, no one every lasted
I come and i go, leaving shadows wherever i go
I seek for my everlasting dream, beyond the rainbows
I glide high in the air, I see no one in my eyes, only you
I sought over the moutains and the sea, no signs of you
I tire out completely, exhausted
I will never rest, the only moment I hav my rest, the day i perish...

An eagle will seek, target and attack!!!

My life, the forest

2007-01-21T08:49:00.001-08:00

(pic by me)
I often like to relate my life with pictures
This was my life previously, a forest
complex, messy and easilly get lost
Until the day i met her
someone who enlightens my life
showing me the correct path to pursue
bringing light and joy into my life
showed me the way the truth of my life
and made my forest like this :

(pic by Peixian)
Made way for me in the diverged forest road
covered the path with smooth pebbles
and leads to another endless dream

The Road Not Taken...

2007-01-16T07:29:00.000-08:00

I still cant choose between responsibility and preference
Why cant we have both??
Or can we lose both??

Somewhere i belong...

2007-01-15T08:32:00.000-08:00

Infront of my old house,
a place where i spent my most innocent childhood
a place where i started to build my dreams
a place where i kept all my secrets
a place where i was brought up
a place where i belong to
a place in Muar...

Its not flooded!!! haha
thank god my area wasn't flooded eventhough my old house always a victim of flood after a downpour :P
It certainly has all my childhood memories ,cycling, gardening, playing basketball, catch fish, climbing trees ...etc
It also went tru all my up and downs during the years i was there
truly a shelter of hope n joy for a kid, so young like me, once.

My 2 lil sis, i dont call them innocent angels, because they are definately more evil than i am...
just for fun.
But i see hope in life, just like they see happiness in the BLAZING candle.
I learnt to be positive and optimist towards life
God has given everyone a candle in their life, it is up to us to choose whether to keep it burning n shining , or to simply allow the gust of wind to blow off the light.

Sometimes, things just crop up and go against my way
even how beautiful i fantasized in my dream
slammed down onto rocky stones from somewhere in heaven
And i learnt that life is not strewn with flowers and smooth pebbles, but thorns, thistles and rocks
And often leave me in ABYSS
in the lost,brokeness and loneliness

Somehow i realise that this world is a harsh place
Surrounded by hypocrites you cannot trust
And cruel reality you wouldn't want to admit
Twisted and contradicted

In search of love , in search of joy, i've looked around
In brokeness, in loneliness, i've cried alone
until the day i realise what kept me going all the while
my pillar of strength, confidence and faith

MY FAMILY...

MY Her...
My God...

When the music fades, deep inside i know, i must not give up
My Dream, My Destiny, My Desire

All Began With A Dream...

2007-01-15T03:28:00.000-08:00

" Every night in my Dream, I see you, I feel You..."

Yeah, there is always a song ringing in my mind at any point of my life,
and this is the one for now
Everyone on earth has the right to dream, and so do i

I have a dream, a simple dream

A dream that is free from the grasp of fate and destiny...

A dream that reveals my true self which the reality had blinded...

A dream like an endless rainbow leading to paradise, one way, no turning back...

A dream of joys n wonders more precious than anyhing else could bring...

A dream that provides ...
a shelter for a victim of fate,
a comfort for a helpless soul,
a fairytale for a desperate idiot...

Hopes were often raised, only to be dashed
My dream, like a bubble,
once poked, then burst, never lasted.
When I am awake from my dream,
all is faded and is stripped away.
Leaving me nothing but a void deep down beneath my soul
Anyhow i still believe that a part of my love will always remain in my dream
And my heart will go on with this dream
Am i allowed to dream?

And here it begins the journey of my fantasy,
to tell u that I Am Who I Am Not and I Am Not Who I Am!

Welcome to the World of Blaze-Craft!!